Too much...

Don't ask too much of me..

It's already tough as it is,

But you still ask for more,

and more,

and even more.

I've made my decision..

I'm where I want to be,

I'm who I want to be,

I'm with the person I chose,

But you still ask too much of me.

I'm being torn in two...

You ask me to come home,

You say you want me back,

You need me..

But that's not me...

I chose my life.

I made my decisions.

All I ask of you,

is to support my decision.

But you still ask too much of me...

Secrets

I have a secret...

They say secrets don't make friends.

At least that's what we used to say.

But there are just some things... 

That shouldn't be shared.

That shouldn't be said.

That shouldn't be heard.

This is a secret....

That makes the body ache.

That makes the brain spin.

That makes the heart break.

And it is a secret that I have.

Story Time...

Let's just start from the beginning.

You said:

You loved me,

You would never hurt me,

We would grow old together...

You promised:

We would never part,

You were different from the rest,

You would never lie...

You lied...

Coming to the peak in our story.

You claimed:

You still loved me,

You wanted only me,

You were happy...

You shouted:

You loathed me,

You tried your best,

It was my fault...

You quit...

Nearing the end of our tale.

I cried:

For our love,

For our lost time,

For our forgotten memories...

I hurt:

For you,

For chances gone,

For a heart shattered...

I lost...

No. 2

Vicious cuts and scrapes

Inside.

Coming undone with

The pain held inside.

Only to scream

Releasing agony with every

Violent cry.

All he feels is

Loss,

Emptiness.

Nothing

To ease the pain. As he runs

In full circles trying to

Numb the feelings.

Calling for help.

Alone,

Looking for love.

Disappointment after disappointment

Eventually leading

Right to the

One that is willing to fix it all.

No more bleeding hearts.

No. 1

Everyday is like the one before,                                                        

Rain seeps down her face as she cries

In pain....

No one hears,

Judge and criticize is all they do

Only to find that all the time they were wrong

Horrific scenes of a torn up heart

Now is all that lives inside,

Swinging around

On life’s little games

NEVER to be heard from again.

Floods...

I'm drowning

in an ocean of memories.

Things that should be locked away

are sweeping in over head.

My lungs fill

with salty tears of the past.

She screams

as his hand comes down

leaving a pool of red and pain.

She begs

but he never gives in.

She cries

while he reaches for his choice of weapon.

Sadness fills the hallway,

pouring out of a son and daughter.

Mortified by what they have lived with

they plead for love.

But it continues.

These thoughts never decease

There here forever

torturing

tormenting

The floods fill,

and I collapse

Reruns..

Looking into your eyes

I'm looking through windows

All I can see

Reruns of what used to be.

Hurt

Pain

Sorrow

Its all coming again

Late nights waiting to hear a sound

A voice

You talk I hear him

Those words,

painful,

agonizing.

Surrounded by what you say is love

But all I feel is emptiness

Lonely and lost

While in a room full of friends.

You'll never know

How deep you cut me

When you swear on our relationship

You'll always 'love' me.